This weather has really tried my patience. Christmas is one of my favorite times in the year, so when my family decided to come up I was thrilled. However, life loves curveballs and decided to throw a giant snow covered one in my direction. Devistated that the snow had prevented my family from coming for Christmas we eagerly rescheduled.
"This weekend I am supposed to be in Corvallis. I am supposed to be with my family. I am supposed to be spending time with loved ones" these thoughts filled my head as I bitterly watched the flood waters rise higher and higher. Wondering how on earth I could have not one, but two Christmas celebrations ruined by the weather was beyond me. It was one of those days where I was bitter and just wanted to stay bitter.
I closed my eyes as I began to worship tonight at church. Asking God to just make it stop raining, I prayed for an open highway. Through the night, I listened to pastor and my heart began to soften. The glory of God's plan seemed to fall bit by bit into my mind. Realizing the plan my heart melted and I realized how beautiful this plan was and is.
This rain should not make me bitter, should not make me miss my family and should not affect me in any way. This rain is about those stranded by the waters and the homes that are shaken by this flood. This rain was never about me or should affect me, it is about others and my prayers needed to go to them, not to myself. It put me in a very humbling realization. Though with the realization, I began to feel smaller in this tiny world.
Also realizing the beauty of how I was affected. If I went down this weekend I would not see my sister Eva, who is always gone during my trips. I probably would not have postponed this trip by my own choice so God, in his loving manner, showed me why it was beautiful to wait.
He adds beauty to everything. We are all a part of this flood. Whether we are part of the helpless or part of the helpers, everyone is affected and banded together. And that...is so...so beautiful.
Thank you Father God for making sense of it all. I trust in you!
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how beautiful short. and very true. uncle and i have worried if you were affected now we know. btw, did you happen to see what happened on the post before the one about cleaning out the closet? i ripped the dirty ol man on your behalf. it was quite nasty but i think he wont be around to bother you (or me) anymore. God willin'
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